Monthly Archives: October 2010


Some days, you just want it to end. You know nothing’s going to be resolved before you sleep. If you sleep, at least the next morning is new and unsullied.

Nerina Pallot singing the words of my heart on repeat. I didn’t even know I could be this angry. Can’t see the point, but that doesn’t stop me.

Haven’t been feeling like taking my camera around lately. I think I know why that is, but I don’t want to say here. I’m still feeling a bit… shy, nervous, sinking-feeling-in-pit-of-stomachy. Okay, there’s no need to be a drama queen. Hopefully after November, it will come back.

Anyway, the week’s over. We have a lot of parties over the weekend. Go friends!

I’ve been listening to Mario Martinez’s Mind-Body Code today. And wow, I’ve learned one or two real, true things. Things that I’ve had a gut feeling about, confirmed in this audio book. I feel like part of me wants to place all my faith in my intuition, because it has always been fairly accurate. Another part holds back. Conditioning, maybe? I don’t know.

Back to the book. There was a thing about how a certain, deep type of love brings out the best in you. A partner in this relationship need not bring anything, instead merely inspires you to expose more of your best qualities. I love that. It got me to thinking how I’ve experienced both sides of the coin, and I’m feeling great about where I’m going at the moment. I’ve also recently noticed the extreme lack of manipulative people in my life. I’ve weeded them out somehow, and am surrounded by the cream of many crops.

It’s a pretty full-on thing to listen to in one go, but really amazing too. There’s a chapter on centenarians, can’t wait to listen to that one again.


I had a really nice walk with Nuwan today. We shared an Indian meal, and a churro and mocha. We stopped in op shops, and I got some books with amazing artwork inside and outside them. I really fancied these little gold teacup and saucers from Japan. Didn’t get them though. We already have too many cups!

I finally got myself a proper harmonica. It’s proving to be a bit harder to play than my imitation one. Oh well. Here’s to the challenge!

Taking a Glee break. I feel weird. I don’t know, maybe I haven’t had enough time to reflect yet.

I have been thinking a little bit about power in numbers. How so much more can be accomplished when you are not one, but a team of many. I’m really grateful for all the wonderful people I know, and how life is not short of people to be with. I think for a while back there, it felt like that was the case.

I don’t really know what I’m rambling about. Feeling emotional, and this episode isn’t doing wonders. But guitar is! Yay!

Yes, hopefully tomorrow will be a better day. The house will be filled with lovely people as usual, and snippets of joy will reign.

Today’s evening is gray and wet and very pretty. I’m happy to be indoors. I managed to air myself on a blanket in the garden earlier before the rain came. Now, Phoenix is playing as dinner is being cooked in the kitchen.